Motherhood is incredible. I pause to really write about it because it comes out all cliche. But for the record, it is the most fulfilling thing I have ever done, I never knew I could love someone so much and I can't imagine my life without him.
Motherhood fits well and is very comfortable. It was much easier when I wasn't working (12 blissful weeks...but now I'm back, 3rd week in the grind). I feel like work is stealing my baby from me. When I get home, I'm so tired I find it hard to enjoy him like I did when I wasn't working. I still live for his smile and his warmth and his smell, but it's not the same.
Work, however, is exactly the same. I'm not ashamed to admit that I like certain aspects of being back. One is being able to surf the net to my hearts content. Another is being able to IM my friends at the push of a button. Oliver is well cared for with family so I don't really have to worry about him. And it's nice to see the look on his face when I appear after being gone hours. It's truly priceless.
I don't know how this worked out, but Robert and Amanda are getting married in Tybee and I am the maid of honor and Anthony is best man. I don't know how God worked on them to decide to do it, but it's made my life. Its going to be a truly wonderful day and I can't wait. August 9th is the wedding date.
I don't understand the frazzled mothers on TV. The ones covered in spit-up. MAybe it's because I have a husband who shares the load, or a baby whose still on the bottle and has slept through the night since 2 months old. Whatever it is, Motherhood makes me serene. It settles me. And while I don't expect for it to have that feeling forever, it has made me what to have dozens more babies. I have to stop myself becaue 1) we can't afford any more babies right now 2) our house is not big enough 3) I don' want to work when I have the second
I want to be out of debt and in a new house before the next baby comes along, which means we gots our work cut out for us. I'd like them close together, two years at the most, but that is a lot to do in two years. We've really got to stick to it. Plus, I just need to enjoy Oliver being a baby. But in my head, he's already grown.
