Tangents.

Last sunday, my brother's father died. I have a weird fascination with funerals. They don't bother me, I don't dread them like most. Maybe thats the southerner in me. Funerals mean you get to see all the people you haven't seen since the last funeral.

Keep in mind, I've never lost anyone close to me. That will probably alter my opinion of funerals.

It's been hard being away. I bought both Twilight and New Moon (I only had the last two, borrowing the first from Kat). I have let every free moment, nose in book. It helps make the time pass in a blur.

I have a sick obsession with Twilight. The writing is horrible and probably pretty sexist at times, but I love to escape into a character that is the damsel in distress. I am always the hero, always in charge, always the one doing the saving. It's nice to be, if only for a moment, completely helpless. It's also nice escaping into a world where money is no problem.

Plus, she is a girl who has two completely gorgeous,sexy, rich (Edward) and strong (Edward and Jacob) men competing for her constantly. Who couldn't get lost in that, if only for a moment?

And she's in high school. Enough said.

On the other hand, New moon is the next book I am going to start (I finished Twilight already) and I sort of dread it even though I know the importance of reading it (New Moon comes out 11/20/2009...can't WAIT!)

But it hits too close to home, being left unexpectedly, that numbing, excruciating pain of a broken heart. Some things you never get over completely, I guess.

Anyway, I miss Oliver but Twilight has made it bearable.

My brothers are so sad but being so strong. Even if we've only been a slight distraction, I hope that Mom and I have helped in some way.