Where has November gone?

My second baby shower was Saturday, November 22. December is almost here and that means I'm almost one month away from being an actual mother. I have to admit, I can't wait to transition into this next phase. I can't wait to see him, love him, teach him and give a part of myself to this world.

So, like I said, my shower was Saturday and it was a whole mix of different people from different aspects of my life. Step-mom, step-sister, relatives from that side mixed with neighbors, in-laws, my mom's side of the family. All coming to celebrate my new burgeoning family. Kind of makes you want to say, 'Aw, shucks'. I can't wait to share this little baby with everyone.

We've had a bit of family drama as of late. Too heavy to go into. It's enough to make me want to run away. It's comforting to know that admist the gunfire, Anthony and I can lay and bed and laugh together. At least for a moment he can make it all go away.

My horomones are at full swing and I find myself on the verge of tears just thinking about certain things. My brother, Michael, for one. He has recently come back into my life full swing after almost an entire lifetime of abscence. I think he is finally proud of his way of life and finds that he doesn't want to hide from us anymore. What he doesn't realize is that we would have loved him unconditionally. He had to learn to love himself first. He is coming back in December and I am so excited my heart could burst. I love my brother. I LOVE him. I want Oliver to have Uncles. Tony is so distant but at least is constant. He has a kind heart and will find loving Ollie to be easy. Michael will be a proud Uncle. I can't wait to see his face the first time he lays eyes on that baby.

Only a three day work week. Wednesday is our VERY LAST Wednesday night court. Before, we have worked from 8 am to whenever court let out (usually around 7:30 pm). Combined with not much action at work makes for a very long and boring day. Starting next week we will have day court. It's been two years coming and I am so excited to have a normal schedule.

I've been Christmas shopping online. Bid on an awesome pair of ET bookends for my cousin Chet but I lost. Bummer. It would have been a hysterical gift.

Feeling plump, pregnant and beautiful. Oliver has found my ribs or rather he is big enough for me to feel him find my ribs. I marvel at this feeling of having life inside me. I've wondered what it would feel like my whole life. I'm trying to take it in without the worry or complaint. It is beautiful and breath taking. Possibly the coolest feeling on the planet. And you can find it within your own body.

Off to re-read Harry Potter

PS Twilight was so amazing. It was everything I hoped it to be and more.