Last Few Thankfuls

Thankfuls:

20. Facebook: It connects us all and eliminates the awkwardness of small talk. Even if you haven't seen them in years, you know that they went to the doctors last week or whatever. I love that we can all keep tabs on each other, see pictures of each other's kids and be apart of each other's lives--even if it's from a distance.

21. The Holiday Season: This year I feel all warm and fuzzy and I find it much easier to slow down and enjoy it. I have become Christmas crazy at home--decorating for a 10.5 month old who has no idea what's going on. He loves the lights in the windows, though, and screams at them (that's how he tells us he wants something--he screams). Anyway, its an excuse to get together, to have heartwarming moments with your family and to tap into your inner child.

22. Burt's Bee's Lip Balm

23. A strong, healthy body: It's amazing what our bodies are capable of. I grew a child with ease, bore it and was able to clean house two days later. Although I wasn't a huge fan of pregnancy, my body handled it beautifully. I'm hardly ever sick and I tend to hang on to weight rather than lose it, but I still love my body--fat shelf and all. I think of my friend Sara always at this time of year--she was the healthiest person I knew--ballerina, so happy and full of life--yet died from leukemia--she was so young. It makes you appreciate your body your health--and realize that all of it can change in an instant-- you're healthy until your not.

24. Two old friends that recently came back into my life--Brandi and Michelle. I am thrilled to be in contact with both of them. Holes were filled I didn't know existed--my life feeling so well rounded with them in it.


25. Indoor plumbing, central heat and air, a roof over my head and the ability to feed my child.

26. That I was donor conceived. I know most would find this an odd thing to be thankful for--but I find that I feel special because of it. Plus, the possibility that I may find siblings (a sister!) one of these days is something I forever hope for and look forward to. There is a sense of mystery to my heritage--and a sense of curiosity I think about all the time. So many men probably think I'm checking them out in the check-out line, but instead I'm pondering, "Could he be my father?"
It's not to say I feel incomplete--I'm not looking for another father. I'm mostly curious.

27. The feeling that I'm being called to do something--finally on the right path, things fitting neatly into place for the first time in years, no more floundering and the faith that it will all work out for me (oh, how I've missed you, faith) I am more myself--I found that hope, that dream, that confidence that so long as been missing.

28. Photo books. I love them--they take up much less room, look uber cute on a shelf and contain a years worth of photographs in one tiny little book

29. My job--sure, sometimes I complain--but it could be so much worse (right, Mom?) My supervisor and I get along personally very well. I don't dread coming to work--and when things are slow--I can write. The pay is decent and the job is easy and there is hope of promotion on the horizon. I understand I was put in this job for a reason. Plus, its something interesting Anth and I have in common--to come home from work to discuss aspects of cases we've worked on. It's a pretty cool thing.

30. "Fall Into Me"--the manuscript I'm working on, getting better and better by the day. It is the first project I've ever obsessed over--I feel like I already know how to write, that I have killer instincts (please don't judge me from this blog--its verbal vomit on here) and I am unlocking every thing I know with every page I write. It is a glorious thing--to have something that gives you a glimpse of your future.